tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6296669137299786155.post7008554531201492012..comments2023-07-20T05:30:32.466-07:00Comments on In My Humble Opinion: Somebody's DoctorJordan Grumethttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12566078305685946261noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6296669137299786155.post-79768295247465001672013-11-18T22:37:58.064-08:002013-11-18T22:37:58.064-08:00Such eloquent depression, dear doctor.
I know what...Such eloquent depression, dear doctor.<br />I know what you mean. I too was from a generation that had the medical ethic of absolute selflessness stamped into my deepest subconscious by medical training that qualified as psychological torture and brainwashing under the Geneva Convention. It came from earlier generations of doctors who lived in a protected environment that never required them to be come egotistical, defensive and competitive. They were left to do their job to the best of their ability. They had the morality to always go beyond the call of duty.<br />It was this absolute morality that shone through from their heart and soul. Their subconscious spoke volumes through subtle and nonverbal communication to create the aura of absolute trust. It allowed the doctor to sleep at night, knowing that egoism and vested interest was not a part of them. They could trust themselves deeply. They had no doubts that they had done their best. Their conscience was clear.<br />They had an inner silence that could hear their intuition and in that silence, they performed miracles, especially of diagnosis. I was taught to listen to the silence in a mother's eyes to make the diagnosis of meningitis before the patient had a fever or headache. I have saved a few children's lives with that one. More are those that I have saved from needless lumbar puncture.<br />Retro-caecl appendicitis, a notoriously difficult diagnosis, I reliably diagnose on sight whilst others who only know science, protocols and technology falter. Sometimes they have reached multisystems failure before I ahve seen them.<br />This is so much more than simple experience. It is a state of mind. It is to live levels of consciousness where jigsaws come together. Inspiration and certainty exist. Contextual logic that includes every subtle observation becomes effortless. And it saves lives.<br />What I was taught was such an advanced state of mind that only monks dare talk about it. They only experience it momentarily in meditation. I was taught to live it by some of the great masters of the clinical arts.<br />Of course, the academics of medicine and science do not like such mysticism or human potential so we dare not talk about it. None could defend it when the politicians, beancounters and administrators came along to devastate the medical culture and decimate a once sacred medical ethic that was the source of such inciteful clinical acumen.<br />I knew what I had become and refused to let go of it. I continued to live up to my indoctrinated ethics. The result was a mental breakdown and I have not worked in mainstream medicine again. I cannot and will not compromise. I have searched the world for a medical system that allows doctors to do their best and go beyond the call of duty. There are none.<br /><br />Doctor Whichhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17413082449192133443noreply@blogger.com