She's Just Not That Into You

Have you ever been in love?

I'm not talking about that sorta, maybe kind of love.  I'm referring to the heart burning, stomach reeling, can't sleep at night because you're so infatuated love.  The kind we all hope for.  Maybe the kind you've had before.  And if you were lucky enough, you coaxed the object of your affection into a relationship.

You spent months or even years building the connection.  At first, everything was quite smooth.  Walks in the park, holdings hands at the movies, and those things you do when you feel that way. 

But maybe the tide turns.  Your calls are answered less frequently.  The response to your texts take hours.  The subtle shift makes your heart ache.  So you become a tad desperate, and up the ante.  A romantic getaway or unexpected gift becomes the patch for the hole in your relationship. 

Despite your efforts, your best intentions, the divide grows.  Eventually you realize that no matter how hard you try, you aren't receiving all that you hoped for.  You still call each other significant others, but your feeling more other than significant.

You've come to a crossroads.  You can either continue to sublimate yourself in an effort to fulfill your partners wants and needs, or you can step back and look at things in a different way. 

Your heart, the most valuable part of yourself that you give willingly, is no longer being accepted.  Sadly, she's just not that into you.  At some point you realize that any confident, self fulfilled person, must not offer themselves to such a partner.

To continue in this relationship is to denigrate your value.  You're better than that.

And so it goes with me and our current health care system.

I guess, for better or worse,

we're breaking up.